Monday, December 27, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
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Friday, December 17, 2010
but yesterday didn’t go as planned. I was stricken with pain not long after my video post, so I was unable to make the cookies. But we did get the haircuts. Today I have lots of craziness going on, and the pain has not let up. I’m taking prescription strength pain meds on top of the other medication that is supposed to help control my pain that is triggered by my nervous system.
I’m medicated the fuck up!
Sir has another school Christmas program today (that’s what happens when you send your child to a Christian (not Catholic, CHRISTIAN) private school--they reserve the right to have 5 million programs when it’s a Christian holiday approaching. So I need to go to that, plus two doctor appointments AND it’s a half day--and last day until after the New Year--for Sir (gets out at 12:30 p.m.). So I have no idea how it will all flow. But…
GOD has never failed me nor forsaken me.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
I’m back to this page again. It’s 6:00 a.m. here in Connecticut. There’s snow outside, so Sir’s school has a 90-minute delay. This delay suits me just fine since my Dysautonomia is kicking my azz this morning; I woke wondering how I was gonna make it through my SIMPLE day, cause it’s not as if my life is all that complicated:
A. Got Sick
B. Went on Medical Leave
C. Insurance Company Hated Paying Me
D. Insurance Company Dropped Me
E. Tried Going Back to My Job
F. Always Got Sick at Job
G. Never Worked More Than an Hour or Two at a Time (skipped WEEKS with no pay)
H. Got “Discharged” from Job Because of Illness
I. Was Denied Unemployment Because “I Am Unavailable for Work”
J. Have Not Seen A REAL Check Since May
K. Am Waiting to Hear from SSI
L. Am Waiting to Hear from Disability
M. Am Waiting for Hell to Freeze over
I. Am. An. Idiot.
Picture of an Idiot
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sir and I are in my room. I think he’s driving me crazy, but I’m not sure just yet. I have lost my mind before. Seriously. Thing was just blown for about 24 hours. Gotta say, that was an awesome 24 hours. Awesome. But my mind is not blown at the moment. But (yes, that’s the third but, which is about the size of my real butt) I am next to a 5-year-old who is throwing a Japanese Yo-Yo across my room while yelling nonsensical things that little boys yell when throwing Japanese Yo-Yos. Then again, this post in itself is pretty nonsensical.
As is life itself.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Aside from the fact that I feel like shyt today, I find myself coming to this page. Not so much out of desire, but more so because I feel some strong attraction that is beckoning for me to be here. Personally, I’d prefer the comforts of not having to perform this daunting task. Daunting because as soon as it starts (the pull, that is!), I never know when it’ll end. Today? Tomorrow? Never? Whenever. And I also prefer to keep to my silent world. I like to. But I also know that when we fight the whisper, life because a fight…a struggle, and that’s not all too enjoyable to me, as it is to some; and I am not against those who enjoy the struggle, for each of us must live the way we see fit.