Thursday, July 19, 2007

Repression: dreaming of a white man

dreaming about unknown man.

his scent lingers.

longing for something not real?

he said, "i have a girlfriend."

i thought, "i don't care."

realized that i did care.

realized i was dreaming.

realized that his slim figure matched black man i know well.

black man i know well in a physically personal way.

realized what repression does to the subconscious mind.

its voice will not be denied.

even if it has to haunt me in my sleep.

am awake now.

but his scent still lingers.


but now i know for whom.